What we call mental health
Dec. 7th, 2023 03:14 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ebrillblaiddes> These days, the phrase "mental health" refers to your ability to engage in surface acting. It has very little to do with your actual emotions or sense of wellness. It has everything to do with how well you can continue fitting in with a group and how much you can contribute to the economy.
https://www.okdoomer.io/weve-got-mental-health-all-wrong/
Daaaaaaaaaamn
In spring 2021, the thing that got me to tell the clinic I needed some lexapro again was I needed to stay employable: when you're pushed to the margins anyway of a system that is doing its best impression yet of the wheels falling off, finding the spoons for keeping or catching up on paperwork is hard, dammit.
The thing about it is I'm still pushed to the margins of a system that is doing its best impression yet of the wheels falling off, but because I can medicate myself into tolerating the situation, it's considered enough.
This is not sustainable; the situation has to change.
Either is valid, you've gotta do what's right for you, but, I've always considered myself to be on Team As Needed rather than Team Perpetual as to lexapro scrips due to a history of medicating myself into tolerating situations for longer than I should have, which led to a bigger splat rather than an orderly exit, but I've been on the stuff for two and a half years this run bc this time the unreasonable situation I'm tolerating is the universe. Thinking about tapering off next summer, I always try to time tapering off for summer so it's not on top of winter -- IDK if I would qualify for a Seasonal-Affective Disorder paperdx but definitely have traits -- bc I am getting close in on a point where the disorderly splat will be an option so I need to get out ahead of that anyway.
And if it all goes splat, I'd like to get out ahead of that too.
https://www.okdoomer.io/weve-got-mental-health-all-wrong/
Daaaaaaaaaamn
In spring 2021, the thing that got me to tell the clinic I needed some lexapro again was I needed to stay employable: when you're pushed to the margins anyway of a system that is doing its best impression yet of the wheels falling off, finding the spoons for keeping or catching up on paperwork is hard, dammit.
The thing about it is I'm still pushed to the margins of a system that is doing its best impression yet of the wheels falling off, but because I can medicate myself into tolerating the situation, it's considered enough.
This is not sustainable; the situation has to change.
Either is valid, you've gotta do what's right for you, but, I've always considered myself to be on Team As Needed rather than Team Perpetual as to lexapro scrips due to a history of medicating myself into tolerating situations for longer than I should have, which led to a bigger splat rather than an orderly exit, but I've been on the stuff for two and a half years this run bc this time the unreasonable situation I'm tolerating is the universe. Thinking about tapering off next summer, I always try to time tapering off for summer so it's not on top of winter -- IDK if I would qualify for a Seasonal-Affective Disorder paperdx but definitely have traits -- bc I am getting close in on a point where the disorderly splat will be an option so I need to get out ahead of that anyway.
And if it all goes splat, I'd like to get out ahead of that too.
